My father died 2 weeks ago, it was very unexpected.
I'm not coping very well, I don't really know HOW to cope.
If anyone has some suggestions or ideas or anything, I would be open to listening.

Death is the worst heartbreak ever.
I love you, Dad.
&I miss you, so much.

It's been over a year since I last posted on here.. I still lurk regularly, and have my favourite artists, but I couldn't bring myself to submit anything. But I'm going to try again.

I am headed back to the UK in a month's time, and hopefully that too, will inspire me again.

Anyway. Hi. I'm back. Hopefully I won't stay away as long again.



ps: I made a writing preview picture thing, forgive the quality as I'm at work and have no decent graphics programs here at all

um, hi. i haven't been around on here in months; i really didn't mean to neglect this for so long, i think i've been uninspired. no, thats not true. i've been inspired - but to write, to do craft things, paper arts & making zines & collage, and things that might not have a place on here, in DA.

i still come back and check in on things. i'm just pretty quiet, until something inspires me to post work on here again.

xxx

Mood: annoyed
Listening to: tori amos setlist
Reading: "the virgin's lover" by phillipa gregory

grr. i'm so annoyed. my computer won't load too many deviations for me, so i can't view any one's images
so if you're wondering why i haven't been commenting lately... that's why.

ARGH !! i miss my deviations ! i have been glimpsing quickly at a few here & there at work (but not too many because i feel guilty! also not all are work safe) and there are some amazing ones that you guys are working on, so it bothers me that i can't look at the properly. i don't know if the problem is with my computer, my modem (i'm on dialup) or what.

*tears out hair*

in other news, i got some of the prints i ordered from some of you this week, and they are lovely. i was going to post the thumbnails of the ones i got, but i can't browse through and find them because i can't see any of the images !

but i'm terribly, TERRIBLY broke at the moment -- so i'm not going to be able to buy any more for awhile now. i know i commented and said there were some prints i was going to order, but i just can't right now. i'm awfully stressed about money at the moment, so i hope you understand :-\

will go back to commenting once my computer starts letting me see everything again. sigh.

member of

Mood: procrastinating ;)
Listening to: video hits (video clips)
Reading: "the virgin's lover" by phillipa gregory

do you like the journal header? it was made by the lovely *dualdesigns who is just too, too sweet. you made my day, you darling !

i adore sundays. sundays are waking up early, a day of writing & finding creative things to do (or rather, procrastinate on doing ) & letter writing & ideas galore. sundays are also mondayitis in anticipation of the week at work ahead, but we don't think about that, right? RIGHT

there are so many creative people on here and beautiful images, i am just falling in love with DeviantArt!! * enstillfear has the most amazing photography -- i am going to buy some of his prints next time i get paid. his photography makes me feel peaceful and happy.

i don't really have much to write about in this journal... i feel rather happy & at peace most of the time, which is unusual for me. art is such a therapeutic medium. i'm working on a couple of zines at the moment and writing and finding words is like a love affair. i feel inspired and full of energy to create things and try and make a difference. i hope this feeling lasts, and i hope i can share it with others and help them to feel the same way.

member of